Unstable conditions, a symptom of life

This is the first line of a song by Rush, Vital Signs. Rush was the favourite band of my boyfriend of the teenage years. We had some friction about music taste, and it took me a while to admit that, yes, I like them too. A lot.

And, yes, I love Jeddy Lee as a bass player.

But getting back to the topic of the post, it’s strange how you struggle to get to a stable life and when you get there... you die a little.

I spent maybe ten years struggling so much for my life, for my family and my work. And then, when everything was finally in its place, when everything was stable and balanced, it seemed that my heart freezed and my brain melted.

What an ungrateful bitch, it took me a while to accept that easy life is not for me.

But that’s it, my balance was disrupted. And it feels great. And I need challenges, and I found them.

And I have a project that I know I will hate myself but in the end I will feel like a god.

Courageous convictions
Will drag the dream into existence

A tired mind become a shape-shifter
Everybody need a soft filter
Everybody need reverse polarity
Everybody got mixed feelings
About the function and the form
Everybody got to elevate from the norm.